A LIVING RECORD
I use this website to keep track of myself over time and externalize as much of myself as I reasonably can: what I believe, what I’m building, what I’m interested in, how I look, and whatever else I think is worth documenting.
I think it’s pretty hard for us to actually understand ourselves. Our cognition is imperfect, our perception of ourselves is biased, our attention is constantly being pulled elsewhere, and memory gets less reliable over time. Most of life is spent reacting to whatever is directly in front of us instead of deliberately keeping track of who we are. This site gives me somewhere outside my own head to put all of that so I can come back to it later and see what stays consistent and what changes.
It also isn’t meant to be entirely self-authored. Other people can add how they see me, challenge what I believe, and point out where they think I’m wrong.
Hopefully it helps me keep learning, changing, and correcting myself in my own way without rewriting the past around whoever I become later.
ProtoDivine came from my old username, NearDivine. I liked “divine” as something to move toward, and “proto” fit better because it means something still being developed. I also just like making prototypes and constantly experimenting, so it fits me pretty well. That matches the point of this site too: keeping a record of myself while I’m still figuring things out.
VERSION RECORD
CURRENT RELEASE / ACTIVE
For 1.0, I want to get to a point where I’m happy with how I present myself, work toward financial independence, learn to draw, and build my community. I also want to find a format for music, videos, or other entertainment that I can keep producing regularly.
I’m treating leaving the Marine Corps as the start of this version, since it gave me much more freedom to express myself and choose what I want to do with my life.
SELF / AUTHORED
I set these myself. The percentages add up to 100 and only show how strongly I associate each trait with myself relative to the others.
Structure before skin. This proxy holds the place of my scanned body.
PUBLIC / PERCEIVED
Up to three choices per visitor. Repeat voting from another browser on the same connection is blocked. Percentages are each word’s share of all votes for this version.
WORLDVIEW
WORLDVIEW / CURRENT MODEL
What I believe.
The core ideas currently organizing how I model reality, moral agents, society, and my own direction.
ALLOW MAXIMUM VARIATION INSIDE A MINIMAL SET OF NECESSARY CONSTRAINTS.
CURRENT RECORD
FORM
Written September 2026
I want to get more consistent with a workout routine and diet so I can work toward the figure I want. Full-body laser hair removal is another big priority for me. I also need to make sure my hair’s in a good spot and figure out if a transplant is something I need to consider.
I also want to find a partner. Part of the appeal is having someone I want to look good for and knowing what they actually like, so I can take that into account when deciding how I want to present myself.
Eight self-portraits fixed to version 1.0. The record changes when the version changes.
Thoughts, criticism, questions, or compliments.
TRAJECTORY
TRAJECTORY
My skills, projects, and goals—what I’ve reached and what comes next.
OPEN DOORS
Follow the work, join the community, or meet me in-world.